Cant get myself up today, couldnt sleep last night. kept hoping that the door bell would ring and you would be home.
Wish I didnt feel this way, alone, desserted, although I know i havent been desserted it still feels like it.
Wish this pain would go away, wish you would come home, when I finally drifted off to sleep I woke up with such a happy feeling then I realised you were gone, no morning kisses or cuddles, no giggles. empty, alone. please come home.
Dont know if im going to be able to live in this house without you, theres just way to many memories. Dont know how to cheer myself up.
My bubbles are gone.
Sunday, 30 August 2009
Saturday, 29 August 2009
Saying Good Bye
So, today I had to say good bye to the love of my life, I went all the way to the airport with him I even packed his suitcase, its been the hardest and longest week of my life.
Watching him walk away from me broke my heart a little more with every step that he took. I must've waited at departures for at least half an hour I couldn't tear myself away, hoping that he would appear and blow me one more kiss or at least just wave.
Once I Finally realised this wouldn't happen I started my journey coming up the escalator at Green Park to change over, He wasn't behind me holding me like he always does and that was it for me.
The funniest thing is I even took the long way home hoping that some how miraculously he would realise that he couldn't live without me for 5 months and that he would be here when I got home ( even knowing that this is the silliest thing). Funny how love makes you selfish.
All our memories that once made me smile now make me cry, as I sit in our room and all i see is his clothes and I can smell him. Heart broken as I am. I can only imagine what he is feeling.
He was so brave, on the verge of tears he just said well i must go now and left. wiping tears from his face. trying to not let me see them.
I know its only 5 months till I see him again, well 155 days, it still feels like a life time.
Funny how when you love some one completely, 1 day with out them feels like an eternity.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEIeb85DkCs
Foo Fighters- Stranger things have happened
Our car song. coming back from Bath singing it at the top of our lungs.
Hope this pain goes away soon.
Miss you Garth Michel.
Watching him walk away from me broke my heart a little more with every step that he took. I must've waited at departures for at least half an hour I couldn't tear myself away, hoping that he would appear and blow me one more kiss or at least just wave.
Once I Finally realised this wouldn't happen I started my journey coming up the escalator at Green Park to change over, He wasn't behind me holding me like he always does and that was it for me.
The funniest thing is I even took the long way home hoping that some how miraculously he would realise that he couldn't live without me for 5 months and that he would be here when I got home ( even knowing that this is the silliest thing). Funny how love makes you selfish.
All our memories that once made me smile now make me cry, as I sit in our room and all i see is his clothes and I can smell him. Heart broken as I am. I can only imagine what he is feeling.
He was so brave, on the verge of tears he just said well i must go now and left. wiping tears from his face. trying to not let me see them.
I know its only 5 months till I see him again, well 155 days, it still feels like a life time.
Funny how when you love some one completely, 1 day with out them feels like an eternity.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEIeb85DkCs
Foo Fighters- Stranger things have happened
Our car song. coming back from Bath singing it at the top of our lungs.
Hope this pain goes away soon.
Miss you Garth Michel.
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